Ever Feel Like You’re Not Good Enough?

Feeling a bit worn out right now. Bit tired, bit annoyed and a bit confused. Life can be hard when you’re young, even as we get older we’re acquainted with certain situation that will test our limits. And I’ve felt the impact of quite a tough one recently.. Ever found yourself in a similar position?


They say it’s always best  to voice your thoughts and emotions. To never bottle it up. but this is so hard, not everyone thinks the same as you and a situation that may seem huge to you might be minor to someone else. So what do you do?

Keep quiet, keep it to yourself and carry on? Easier said than done. Cry it out and let go? Worst feeling ever. Binge eat? You’ll regret it later. The options are endless and the possibilities infinite.Not feeling wanted or accepted can be the worst feeling ever, especially when you feel like you haven’t got anyone to speak to. the little things that have been building up are breaking you from the inside out and everything you do is put to the test. Constantly trying your best but nothing good ever comes from it, believing’patience is a virtue’ may help at the beginning but you can only tell yourself this so many times before you begin to question it.

I felt a little down recently, but how did I pick myself up from it? Opened a notebook/diary/journal and scribbled my emotions furiously onto that poor piece of paper whilst the tears rand own my cheek onto the defenseless paper, sat up in bed and then began to question myself and the things i had done to put myself into the position i was. After a long hard think of all those reasons it began to occur to me that it wasn’t a fault of my own. Many times in life we will be put in positions which test our limits and the only thing we can do is suffer the blow when we should really be using it to help us grow stronger as a person. Whatever the experience we can use it as a learning kerb. I was rejected from a school I recently applied to but my sister got in. How was that fair? I feel like i try ten times harder than her in school yet she still achieves better than me. What had i done to deserve this horrible feeling of unwantedness and feeling like I wasn’t good enough. After while of thinking the thought occured to me that there were probably a hundred other people who felt the same as me or maybe even worse.What shall i do, share the experience to let you know that you’re not the only person who feels like that. Yes, it’s only a small bit of writing written by a young angry girl what will it really do.

Its the small things that slowly brake us and rip us apart bit by bit, so why can’t we be put back  together the same way, with the small positive things around we might usually take for granted. It helps when you know that someone else is going through a hard time too. I stuck up that letter. in my room, on my wall. Somewhere I would see it every day to remind myself of how I was feeling at that moment in time, to motivate me.

Share your thoughts with me,what upset you recently? Made you question yourself? Just remember that you’re really not alone, the most helpful person is the one staring back at you in your reflection. A whisper of encouragement can carry you a long way.

Keep your chin up and your shoulders back. Smile.

Love S x

“Inside of a ring or out, ain’t nothing wrong with going down. It’s staying down that’s wrong.”         – Muhammad Ali 

 

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12 thoughts on “Ever Feel Like You’re Not Good Enough?

  1. Hey,

    I’m really sorry that you’ve been going through tough times. This surely happens to everyone. I remember when I was in college I went through something apparently similar than you did: I failed some classes, even though I studied really hard. I’ve always been a nerd, I’ve always done my very best and that time I had to learn that sometimes our best is not enough. This is very painful. I had two dear friends who studied a lot less than I did and still got better grades than me. It’s very frustrating when people get what you want by putting less effort into it than you did, specially if they are someone close to you who you love, but at that moment can’t help but hate a little.

    Remember it’s not their fault though, and it’s also not yours. If you did your best and still didn’t get accepted, it may be for the best. I do believe that things in life happen for a reason. You should always do your best, of course (not relax and expect good things to happen to you), but many times what you wish for is not what’s best for you. You may never know why you were rejected, but trust that you were put on the best path for you. I for example failed the test when I first tried to get into university, and I was very sad and angry. The next year I tried again, was accepted, and was able to study in the same class as a girl who would become my best friend and a guy who became my husband! I wouldn’t have talked to them as much if I had started the course a year earlier. Who knows what the future holds in store for you!

    I know that at these times it’s hard to be positive, and it’s ok to allow yourself to be sad and angry for a while, if you need it. But I hope that soon you’ll be able to see again all the beautiful things that are happening in your life, and how this annoying experience has made you a stronger person. I’m sorry for the huge text and I know you don’t even know me, and I don’t really know what’s going on with you, but I hope the fact that I sincerely wish you well will cheer you up, even if it’s just a little. 🙂

    Nicole

    • Thank you so much for such a kind and supportive message and really does mean a lot. Gives me hope, thats so lovely that you managed to meet your best friend and husband! This really makes me look forward to the future. I don’t know you but even if I did that would have been the nicest message I have ever received and definitely cheered me up. Thanks a million. You have such a gorgeous aura S xx

  2. I’m so sorry you’re going through such a hard time right now. I’ve often felt resentful of my sister, who always seems to have the better luck even though I feel like I try so much harder. For me, its always little things, but they tend to build up and then I unintentionally resent her.
    We just have to remember that it’s not your fault and it’s not theirs either. Things will work out, maybe even better than you expected. It’s hard to put things into perspective, but that’s probably the best thing you can do in this situation. Write it all down, if that’s what works for you and blog too, if you find that that helps. There are so many lovely, lovely people in the blogosphere that are always willing to give you a bit of encouragement or advice. I sincerely hope everything works out for you. xx

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