Feeling a bit worn out right now. Bit tired, bit annoyed and a bit confused. Life can be hard when you’re young, even as we get older we’re acquainted with certain situation that will test our limits. And I’ve felt the impact of quite a tough one recently.. Ever found yourself in a similar position?
They say it’s always best to voice your thoughts and emotions. To never bottle it up. but this is so hard, not everyone thinks the same as you and a situation that may seem huge to you might be minor to someone else. So what do you do?
Keep quiet, keep it to yourself and carry on? Easier said than done. Cry it out and let go? Worst feeling ever. Binge eat? You’ll regret it later. The options are endless and the possibilities infinite.Not feeling wanted or accepted can be the worst feeling ever, especially when you feel like you haven’t got anyone to speak to. the little things that have been building up are breaking you from the inside out and everything you do is put to the test. Constantly trying your best but nothing good ever comes from it, believing’patience is a virtue’ may help at the beginning but you can only tell yourself this so many times before you begin to question it.
I felt a little down recently, but how did I pick myself up from it? Opened a notebook/diary/journal and scribbled my emotions furiously onto that poor piece of paper whilst the tears rand own my cheek onto the defenseless paper, sat up in bed and then began to question myself and the things i had done to put myself into the position i was. After a long hard think of all those reasons it began to occur to me that it wasn’t a fault of my own. Many times in life we will be put in positions which test our limits and the only thing we can do is suffer the blow when we should really be using it to help us grow stronger as a person. Whatever the experience we can use it as a learning kerb. I was rejected from a school I recently applied to but my sister got in. How was that fair? I feel like i try ten times harder than her in school yet she still achieves better than me. What had i done to deserve this horrible feeling of unwantedness and feeling like I wasn’t good enough. After while of thinking the thought occured to me that there were probably a hundred other people who felt the same as me or maybe even worse.What shall i do, share the experience to let you know that you’re not the only person who feels like that. Yes, it’s only a small bit of writing written by a young angry girl what will it really do.
Its the small things that slowly brake us and rip us apart bit by bit, so why can’t we be put back together the same way, with the small positive things around we might usually take for granted. It helps when you know that someone else is going through a hard time too. I stuck up that letter. in my room, on my wall. Somewhere I would see it every day to remind myself of how I was feeling at that moment in time, to motivate me.
Share your thoughts with me,what upset you recently? Made you question yourself? Just remember that you’re really not alone, the most helpful person is the one staring back at you in your reflection. A whisper of encouragement can carry you a long way.
Keep your chin up and your shoulders back. Smile.
Love S x
“Inside of a ring or out, ain’t nothing wrong with going down. It’s staying down that’s wrong.” – Muhammad Ali